My Hopes for Health {Letter}

I’ve never been one to do the letter to my kid thing but watching her develop into this tiny, fierce person made me change my mind.


You came into this world too soon for the comfort of my medical practitioners and me too…let’s be real. I was not ready! Your room was still unprepared and I didn’t have a bag packed. I gave birth in pig tails for goodness sake!  My first visual of you in this world, was of your tiny fists (big feet) and “this displeases me greatly” face. A facial expression that I’ve grown accustomed to seeing now that you’re two. Haha! The nurses in the NICU called you a troublemaker and kicked you out after two weeks. Who pulls out their oxygen tubes, feeding tubes and removes heart monitoring devices?! You wanted us to know that you didn’t need them and you were right.

Fast forward to now and I have a toddler who tells me that her jacket is “uncomfortable” and that “it time to do yota {yoga}”. You love to work on your handstands and are better at popping into a “crow pose” than I am! I pray that you always have the desire to be your authentic self. You are vibrant, daring, intelligent and beautiful.

While I hope you have a life filled with love, awesome experiences and success…the thing I want most for you is health. I want the disordered eating to end with me. I will always do my best to shield you from one of the most impressionable factors in your life…me. I have found a love for this body that I once hated. Instead of pinching and poking at myself in the mirror, I flex and we flex together. Your dad thinks I’m turning you into a baby douchebag. He’s jealous. We use positive language when we talk about our bodies. Strong legs and a big heart will carry you far in life.

Take charge of your life and do great things. Be brave, darling!


Spa Day, Stay at Home Mom Duties and Anxiety

Thank you for the well wishes! I was sick up until Christmas Day but I still ate my face off. Well, I did as much eating as my stomach would allow and after days of liquids…two meals seemed like a lot!

Where have I been? I needed a little break. With the weight of a job that makes me miserable and figuring out what comes next…I just needed some time to think and breathe. A mental break of sorts because my anxiety was in high gear (and still kinda is but its more manageable).

Here’s a snippet of what I’ve been up to:

Santa sent me to the spa the Saturday after Christmas and I was excited because it was my first fancy pants massage. I’m thinking about working them into my regular schedule if possible.

Harper’s daycare conveniently closed for the entire length of my vacation. Mercy! That child’s energy is limitless. Because my trainer wants me to incorporate yoga into my routine, Harper and I would practice some together. She’s better than I am! Ha! That little lady would do handstands all day if I would let her.

Obviously. 😉

Influenster sent me this swanky new antiperspirant to try. More information is to come. It’s pretty cool and definitely is one of those products I wouldn’t have necessarily bought. You’ll see.

Mike and I were able to go out on New Year’s Eve for some much needed couple time. I even shaved my legs.

I’ll post this year’s goals next week. There are some big, scary, exciting things planned for the year.

This post was fueled by a rice cake with peanut butter, coffee and Bag Raiders.

More Daycare Germs

When I clocked out at 4:30 last Friday for the last time in 2015, I was feeling pretty good. Then I got the phone call from Mike. He knows my gym schedule and would never call me during cardio unless it was something important. Harper had another stomach virus. At the time we didn’t dare call it a stomach virus because we didnt want to “speak it into existence”. I spent all of Friday night cleaning up after the poor thing until she went to bed. Saturday was pretty smooth, Harper’s appetite was back and she was bouncing around. Phew! Her PM snack at daycare just didn’t agree with her stomach.

We went to go look at cars and visited Saulda Shoals’ annual light show. (pictures to come)

I woke up Sunday morning like “this is it”. I wanted Mike to promise that he wouldn’t let Harper hate Christmas like the girl from “Gremlins”. Dramatic? Maybe, but I felt horrible. My one regret is letting her see me in that state because in all seriousness my family was thisclose to taking me to the ER. She kept calling for me so Mike talked me into resting in the living room. Big mistake.

Tears. “Mommy, you otay?” And more tears.

I left the room until I was more presentable. I’m almost fully recovered and ready for some Christmas dinner! Assuming that Mike isn’t sick by then, in which case we will eat sandwiches! Ha!

This post was fueled by my iPad so whoops for any misspelled words.


Harper’s 2nd Birthday

We celebrated Harper’s 2nd birthday on Saturday and boy did I eat my face off! I wanted a more scaled down event as compared to her 1st birthday. I did not want to cook for 50 people this time! We had a family only shindig with the grandparents, aunts, one cousin and Michelle with her two kiddos!

Because we had a smaller party and I wanted to keep it casual, chicken and waffles were on the menu. Michelle brought her awesome sausage dip and a fiesta ranch dip that I love! I was busy in the kitchen so I have zero pictures. I know! Bad blogger. I’m going to just ask everyone to forward pictures that they took of Harper’s Pokemon party. Yes, my little girl likes Pokemon and Togepi is her favorite. Ha! We aren’t raising her to think she can only like “pink and frilly” and that drives her traditional grandparents nuts.

Michelle was able to capture a picture before Harper (with some assistance) cut her cake. She didn’t want to sit still so her body is blurry. Half of our pictures look like this now! Ha!

Mike and I will celebrate our 5th wedding anniversary this Friday so I’m going to need to really keep my nutrition in check until then. I want to indulge a little that night. Moderation.

Are you able to stop and capture the moment?
What’s your go-to dinner party appetizer?

This post was fueled by Starbucks, The Neighbourhood and a ham & cheese sandwich. Fancy! 😉